It was like doing a time travel with this trip rather than going for a certain occasion. Maybe I had started to love this almost have no sleep city even if it's packed and flood everywhere after a big rain. Or maybe I always love this city without knowing when it was started. And leaving this city sometimes makes me worry that I'll miss it more.
There's a lot of things that I want to say or err write. But I suddenly don't know what to write here. Since I wrote a lot here lately. Oh yeah I couldn't throw my random stuff freely on Instagram, Path or Twitter anymore.
Said to people that I was taking a short holiday here. But no one believed and I don't care I just want to throw random things on my Instagram haha. But I guessed it really was a short holiday. Another sweet and pure start for my journey. Err a renewal for things inside me who's still looking for job. Hap!
I met some friends, talked to them a lot. Getting another spirit from them. I watched a movie last night with my cousin and ate Richeese! After I wanted it for a long time alhamdulillah hihi. But I should've ordered the first level rather than the second one. But that's okay even my lips getting red since I want it so much. Iye ngidam, tapi pengen Gurinnya ngga keturutan:(
My cousin asked me to watched a fim by Bayu Skak titled Yowis Ben and I just agree without so much thinking. I don't have any high hope to this film even people said it's a wrap since everyone's preference is different. But it really is a wrap and it has good moral values. Good job Indonesian! It made me miss Malang:(
Watching this movie made me realize that there always be people or person who support you no matter what and who you are. It was Bayu who suffered after his band getting so popular. I wasn't sure if it was their greed or their ego but yeah perempuan memang salah satu ujian buat laki-laki. Bayu got so much closer with Susan but he ignored by his member. So yeah whatever, whenever and wherever you're in hard condition you'll always have some behind to support you. It's just you who need to realize who they are. How they're going to help you or how you're going to ask for help. It may take some times but everything will get better and you'll be okay. God is always with you too.
Sleep over budhe's home is always another thing to do here. I don't like to sleep over lately since it's a little bit troublesome. I don't like to bring so many things with me for sleep over but I have no choice and I have to bring this-that things. Budhe always told me so many things everytime I went there. Oh yeah sleep over at budhe's place always make me miss my dad. They're family always warm even they're bickering at each other. They hug each other. They share stories each other. It's not like my own isn't that warm but sometimes I wish dad is still here. Talking and drive me nowhere to me. I wonder what kind of conversation that I'll have with him in case he's still here. I wonder what he may thinks if I bring my boyfie home wkwk.
Dad is always a quiet person. To me personally it's a little bit hard to remain my memory about him. It's been 8 years so far. Cuma sisa bagian-bagian kecil aja. Sisa aku yang inget Papa suka beliin molen dan terang bulan malem². Sisa aku yang inget Papa suka beliin roti pisang cokelat di perjalanan anter aku ke sekolah. Papa yang suka beli amsle. Papa yang suka pindah ke deket kamar mandi gerbong kereta cuman biar anaknya bisa tidur enak. Papa yang suka ajakin jalan pas make minggu ke alun-alun. Papa yang suka ajakin ke perpus daerah buat pinjem buku pas istirahat jam makan siangnya. Papa yang suka anter aku ke mana aja. Yeeps, what Dilan said maybe true. Rindu itu berat. Obatnya cuma ketemu. Tapi kalo udah begini, rasa-rasanya doa ngga cukup menghapus rindu. Maybe this is why I don't want to sleep over at budhe's for a long time. I'll start to miss him more.
Adheala Nathasya W.
March, 11th 2018
