I am okay, probably I am not

(dheakuu):
dear you, things that scrumbled on my mind is easily solved by seeing you this morning. though you stands in front not besides.
(dheakuu):
I told myself again and again that everything is okay. and I told myself that it's just okay seeing you there smiling brightly not besides.
(dheakuu):
again, I told myself that I am happy seeing you though you don't see me. sometimes it just the matters of time that don't cooperative. sometimes chances matter a lot.
(dheakuu):
the worst is sometimes the fate matters. God won't allow you and I standing as us. again I told myself that it's just okay so I can live my own life as nothing happen but the pieces of you left.
(dheakuu):
but again I said it's okay so God sends me the better you for the rest.