Dear the strongest superman I’ve ever had.
It may be the letter I wrote to you for the many times I’ve had. You may
read it when I just write it or when I just think of it. Then you may know how
do I do here. Yeah, I’m not doing really well here. I just found some hard times
for being independent here. I don’t really need to tell you how much I miss you
and how I miss those times we spent together. No, I’m not going to cry tonight.
I want to tell you something. Since I have no courage to say something to you.
I do really know how you keep it all and just spit something good to me. I
don’t really remember how many times we could talk just by ourselves. But
you’ll always know that I do really loves you. To the moon and back. Since I’m
here till I back.
The girl you raise together with the second woman you loves is growing.
Being mature from the second to the hours. I’m not mad when you called her the
second woman you loves cause the first is your mother. And I wish that I’m the
third. Soon I’ll be a woman. I’m just nineteen years old today. But you always pray
for the long live. And a nineteen years old girl is thinking much and much each
day. For her better life. For those things she wants to do in the future. For
those thing she wants to give for people around her. For those things she wants
to do a lot. For the one she loves may be ..
Ah it’s getting hard to say these things to you. I want to throw it out but
I just writing the prologue more and more. Want you to understand how much I
miss you. It will be that long if I keep telling you how much I miss you. I
just believe in you that you love me no matter what. Even you haven't telling
me that. Sometimes it's better left unsaid and you just show me how much you love
me by raising me this well.
Two months before may be the best time I've ever had by staying beside a
boy. It's already end by the way. No matter what it's just happening and I'm
letting it go. With no regret cause I know someone telling me best answer. And
God just giving more, making a good plan and blow it like a happening magic. He
just treats me well. All I need to say is thanks for those happy and good time he and I spent together. And sorry for those hard times I gave. I would not ask him for the promise you had to me. It's just
okay. Sometimes people forget about what they have said. Me too. Isn't it ?
These day another one keep asking me of what kind of relationship I would
have by now. I do surprise of the things he asked me about. I don't really
think about it before. But because someone has asking me than I think of it. Ah I said, yeah what kind of relationship I do want by now ? I haven't telling him
but I am done writing it. I don't know whether I post it or not. He is getting
serious more and more without any reason. I just realize how much he change
back then. I just know how good he is now. As life goes on he had those hard times.
I am being the reason of one of it. He just telling me the good things. Asking
some serious question in the middle of the night than fall asleep. Leaving me
with those question hanging up there. Well, does he really into his question
dad ? Is he the right one ?
I have my time to think of it. Because I know how precious a man like he
is. Just like how precious you are to me right now. He keeps telling me to pray
every morning since I met him. I just started to call him in the middle of
talking to the God. I started to positive that he can be the one as he positive
too. He just asking some question dad. Than, would you answer it for me ? Than
tell me is he the right one ? Can I stay beside him ?
I have my time to think that I would crying on him as the time before.
Cause he deserves this. Just like you. I won't loose him like the time I had
before. He is that precious that I started to believe than he can bring me
better and better. We're just going to wait how the story is going. I hope that
he'll be the one cause I'm not playing around with him. Yes daddy, this little
girl is going to have a serious one. I just see that he's trying hard to going
well with God. Than everything will be okay later. Don't you thinks so ? I just
think that way hehee.
I am going to have some sleeps because it's just late to take some nap. I
have some classes and a test on the day. Could you please tell the God to make
me staying beside him ? But you could do it when you agree of what I think
daddy. Just take your time to think of it. Cause I'm in the middle of time enjoying
these stories. So, bye ! Love you to the moon and back :*
a little girl named dhea :)
